In 2011, I came across an extraordinary exchange that gave me a new vocabulary for what those bodies had represented for me and a clearer understanding of how they had insinuated themselves into my psyche and work. In an article by Saul Bellow in the New York Review of Books he quoted a passage from Lionel Abel’s memoir The Intellectual Follies:
But I had no real revelation of what had occurred until sometime in 1946, more than a year after the German surrender, when I took my mother to a motion picture and we saw in a newsreel some details of the entrance of the American army into the concentration camp at Buchenwald. We witnessed the discovery of the mounds of dead bodies, the emaciated, wasted, but still living prisoners who were now being liberated, and of the various means of extermination in the camp, the various gallows, and also the buildings where gas was employed to kill the Nazis’ victims en masse. It was an unforgettable sight on the screen, but as remarkable was what my mother said to me when we left the theatre: She said, “I don’t think the Jews can ever get over the disgrace of this.” 1
The words of Lionel Abel’s mother caused an instant shudder of recognition—underlying my work was this internalized conception of the disgraced Jewish body and it had always been there. The impulse to photograph myself, the obsession with classicism and beauty, the attempts at recuperation using images of dead birds were all tied to those corpses. It may also explain why I have a commitment to live capture, and despite the expansion of photography into the digital and virtual, why my work, even when it meanders into the space of 0s and 1s, always returns to the material, occupying lived space and demanding an accounting from it.
At the point in the history of photography when those black and white photographs that so profoundly influenced my development as an artist were taken at the end of World War II, there was a consensus that the photograph functioned much in the way that Roland Barthes described in Camera Lucida. According to Barthes, “Every photograph is a certificate of presence.” 2 Barthes was concerned both with the indexicality of the photograph, e.g. what it referred to—generally the moment when the light reflected off the subject created an impression on the negative, and with the iconicity of the photograph, e.g. what that person or thing being photographed looked like. For him the photograph was simultaneously a record of embodiment and of disembodiment, or a moment forever lost and irretrievable. I would describe this entangled relationship of embodiment and disembodiment both as an aspect of the technology and an aspect of the content of my work. Barthes says: “This will be and this has been; I observe with horror an anterior future of which death is at stake. In front of a photograph of my mother as a child, I tell myself: she is going to die: I shudder, like Winnicott’s psychotic patient, over a catastrophe which has already occurred. Whether or not the subject is already dead, every photograph is this catastrophe.“3 In the unspeakable present of the Holocaust images that brought me to my subject matter, present and future collapse —for what anterior future could they have?
Despite the advancements made in the technologies of representation, live capture, whether made with a digital camera, laser scanning or photogrammetry, retains its iconicity. In other words, the process still records something captured in real space that will resemble the thing captured. But indexicality has changed. As the scholar Kris Belden-Adams remarks in an article titled, Don’t Hate the Index: Reconsidering the Promise of Pierce, the index has become “slippery” 4 and we are no longer sure exactly which moment in a chain of digital incarnations it refers to. It is here, in the realm of the index that photography has expanded in unexpected ways and allowed for a strange circuitry of impressions from which the material manifestations of a live capture can take on new and different forms. In addition to a more traditional photograph or video, my work can now be output as a wireframe drawing, a motion capture video, a 2D rendering of a three dimensional object, a 3D model, a glass sculpture, a marble sculpture or a bronze sculpture, to name a few.